Morning Walk September 28, 2017 – The Bird

A man, wearing crew socks, basketball shorts, and a baseball cap, pushes a red rolling mechanics cart across six lanes of traffic, but he does not have a car.

The Man stands at a newspapers box, his leaf blower laid over the top. He is scanning the ads and his companion the Bird, easily three feet long from top to tail, magnificent and bold, sits placidly on his shoulder.

Today, there is a blue kerchief around their neck that conceals the collar, but not the iron chain, with links as large as my pinky, that ties them to the Man.

I wonder what the Bird thinks about the chain, about their leaf-blowing, newspaper-reading job in a concrete and asphalt jungle where the other feathered creatures hop through the muck and oil for meaningful crumbs and small satisfactions are gained.

But mostly, I wonder how the Bird feels toward the Man whose fingers attach the chain every morning and remove it every night.

Has the memory of what had been a raging fire of hate? or it is a settled, cold, hard stone that keeps them grounded.

A memento they carry with them always, and every shuffle of their feet, every bowing of their head, every curtailed stretch of a wing before flight is a protest and a plea that the Man who keeps them will see and finally acknowledge and end their suffering.

But it may be that it is neither of these things, and the Bird, content with the reality they are currently experiencing, thinks rarely if ever upon the jungles past and the life they might have.

Perhaps they even prefer their captivity, the routine, the comfort, the safety, the snacks, to the wild and unpredictable freedom of the forest.

I wonder if the Man believes this.

What did you see?

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Morning Walk September 22, 2017 – Small Experiment

It is said that the stories we tell ourselves create our realities. The lives we live, based up the interpretations of the experiences we have — or believe we have.

But how can we test such a statement?

It seems a bit woo-woo to suggest that a person, late for a train, for example, can interpret that lateness in a manner different from what her atomically correct, ever updated smart watch tells her.

So, I try a small, decidedly non-scientific experiment.

It begins with noting the usual mantra that runs through my head when I’m late: I’ll make it, but barely.

Normally, I repeat this ceaselessly as I move quickly through the streets, and, to the best of my faulty memory, I am right. Typically I jump on or sit down just as the doors slide closed.

Today, I change the mantra to: I make it, two minutes to spare.

And I do.

Perhaps I’ll try expanding the experiment and see what happens.

How about you?

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Morning Walk September 21, 2017 – Running for the Train

It’s 08:02 in the station,

the 08:05 train at the far end

A young woman in white jeans bursts past in a full-out, arms-pumping, hair-streaming run to the platform door

She has plenty of time

Across the threshold and on to the platform,

it’s now 08:03

and two young men rush past, as if the train were already in motion and not standing still as death next to them,

wide doors an open invitation

Don’t they know what time it is?

Have they no sense of their own motion through time and space?

But I, too, ran today

Only earlier, and out of sight of these eager youngsters

Surrounded by strangers, a sense of the impending rush eliciting an undignified gallop, pack bouncing into spine, urging forward, ever faster

Everyone runs for the train

What did you see?

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Morning Walk September 20, 2017 – You Otter Know

Time is such an odd construct, and these days, of questionable value.

What does a year mean to you? A day? An hour?

What is anything other than a series of “Nows” piled upon each other in diminishing succession in front and behind us.

The imaginings of those moments creates feelings, responses that, unless we are careful, become our reality.

Without warning, I feel the hard sidewalk under my feet and look down to see an otter, transparent in its play and radiant with love.

Further down the block, the hipster coffee shop has opened (finally).

It’s proprietor blissfully unaware that red flannel and a full beard is so-three-years-ago.

A cinema-style marquee proclaims they are “Making Americano Great Again.”

But I’m not buying it.

What did you see?

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Morning Walk September 19, 2017 – Snowflakes

I imagine I walk like Kerouac, trying to soak in the sights, sounds and stories of the city, but I am less drunk, and so, perhaps less successful.

A Toyota truck sports a chrome greyhound dog on its hood and a chrome spiderweb on its grill.

At the stop light, a private bus, shuttles tech workers and proudly proclaims the number of cars its presence removes from the roads.

A pre-emptive statement meant to counter any frustrated and underpaid non-tech protesters.

Orchids are on sale, their showy season nearly up. They are being replaced by ripe balls of cotton on dried out stems and oak leaf wreaths.

The windows are decorated entirely in white.

Felt snow flakes falling eternally toward their felt covered ends. They are far more resilient and individual then they appear at first glance.

Enough snowflakes together create an avalanche.

Around and above the wintery scenes, tiny white lights fade and blink in surprise at the sunshine.

What did you see?

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September 18, 2017 – Moonshine

For four of the last six weeks, I have not been present in my city. And even those days when my physical body walked the cracked asphalt lines, my mind and heart were elsewhere.

I am here.

A book on a ledge, “The Russian Concubine,”

A man in a orange vest sprays the sidewalk, “Watch out,” he says, aiming the spay where I will walk, “I’m cleaning up the mess they made.”

“They” are people trying to live their lives the only way they know, the only way they can. They are oblivious as to why it is a total disaster for everyone, especially them.

I thank him for making a difference, and even though I’m careful, some of the mess clings to me as I move.

A man wearing a Harley Davidson baseball cap sits on a low wall, his left hand cupped around a cigarette, the smoke seeping out from under his outstretched pinky, like steam from a cup of tea.

The fog mutes everything: colors, sounds, and view. One day, it will mute the memories too, leaving only a softness of indistinct shapes with blurred edges, emotions long spent, will lose their vibrancy and fade into grey.

It is now.

But I still remember how, so long ago, as I stood at the edge of the Abyss, lured by love and a sense of duty, it stared back; and I turned, vowing to never approach again, no matter who beckoned.

All else is moonshine.

What did you see?

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Morning Walk September 9, 2017 – Hunt SF

Just another Saturday morning and roving gangs of oddly dressed people pepper the streets of my neighborhood.

Some dressed in a thematic way, others … just odd.

They huddle together and wildly gesticulate in various directions, some hunker down to quietly calculate their next move.

I wonder what, exactly they’re hunting.

Scavenger hunts have become increasingly popular in this compact and interesting city.

And, because it’s *this* city, and we are who we are, costumes and props are often de rigueur.

Across from the now defunct Julie’s Lounge, the laundry/cafe,  that serves wonderfully spiced chillaquilles is inundated.

Puppy and I don’t mind.

My own hunt nabbed a vision in white in the alley behind our building.

What did you see?

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Morning Walk September 8, 2017 – Row, Row, Row Your Boat

I open my door and step into the Stream of Life flowing past it.

As usual, I feel I have started late, but I am actually right on time. Now being the only time I could have started.

People, bikes, dogs, skateboards of various sizes, types and locomotion create the waves that carry me along.

Hidden away from sight and sitting in plain view, is a Buddha.

The plants around him long withered, his silent vigil held in the company of a trash bin, locked behind bars. Still, his countenance is untroubled.

Legs and arms move forcefully through the Stream. The oars pressing on.

Breath fills the great sails of my lungs and I glide toward the train.

The way is known without thinking. I will make it, but barely.

Hayro said, “The way is an open-eyed man falling into a well.”

My eyes are open. I see the well.

But I am still so foolish as to hope I will not fall.

The last quarter mile is a sprint, with all the time in the world.

I make it, but barely, and the doors close to my back.

What did you see?

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Morning Walk September 7, 2017 – The Clerk

Today I walk behind a forty-ish woman, no more than five feet tall.

The tops of the Tom’s brand shoes on her feet form a V as her quick, short steps bring her arches to the ground.

She carries her weight in her thighs, but her torso is small. Her dark pants decorated with subtle pin stripes, no doubt they lengthen her stride.

A jacket, also dark, but sporting tiny white diamonds in a symmetrical pattern, declare that she is business casual, the white ruffled top peeking out confirms the statement.

Her chin length hair, dyed a medium brown, is parted to the side revealing two inches of steely grey and scalp.

She wears makeup and powder expertly applied over her face, but even that cannot cover the deep smile lines and crows feet around her warm, kind eyes on this fresh morning.

I imagine she may be a stenographer or perhaps a clerk, rejoicing in the newly wed, grieving with the deceased, as she helps them all with the inevitable paperwork. She seems eager to begin.

The man and the parrot blow leaves from my path this morning, and I miss the break in traffic to smile and say hello.

Another break comes.

Orchids, those sexy beasts, their broad, expectant faces turned up, shake and bow as they are loaded into the windowless van.

Fragrant branches, ripped from their roots, their base, from all they know, nevertheless push forth with tender buds, green and soft in the morning.

What did you see?

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Morning Walk August 29, 2017 Walking Alone

Back in my city, and summer hasn’t yet come. Thick fog wraps the structures in mystery and one can only guess at their complete forms.

Today, my mind and my heart are 500 miles away, contained in a small room with an obscured window, impatient for the sun, unclear on what crime led to this place.

A lifetime of thoughtful planning, of kindly putting others always first, of careful nutrition and exercise, of carrying out actions in methodical order, failed to make arrangements for a shift in reality that others could not follow and could not abide.

Neuro-biological illness, whether transitory or chronic, is difficulty to accommodate, and impossible to plan for.

The insidious nature of such diseases, that they hide themselves so well from hosts, while showing abundantly to complete strangers, makes them all the more tragic.

I’m used to rushing, but unused to schedules, and the pack shifts heavily on my back as my knees pound into the concrete, legs moving mechanically.

I don’t wear eye makeup anymore, it’s an invitation to the tears that always hover just beyond the edges of my bones.

She doesn’t want me to give up my life, doesn’t want me there. “It’s not worth it,” she tells me on our last good day, “go home.”

And another piece of my heart breaks off because I don’t know what will become of her. I am all she has, but she cannot be alone, and we both know it.

“We all walk alone,” she says as she closes her eyes

My legs move faster, I must be on that train, so I jump as the conductor shouts, “All aboard!”

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